Babe In Total Control of Herself

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

goodbye motime blog.... hello blogdrive! yes, i have migrated to blogdrive. =)

http://imnotmostgirls.blogdrive.com/

see you there.

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

stole from my friends' blogs. as always, thanks guys. =)

If you...

1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve?

Filipino fusion or Italian or Japanese

2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell?
shoes, bags, clothes (fits my personality huh?!)

3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be?
hmm...suspense thriller or parang mga sinulat ni Stephen King

4. ...ran a school, what would you teach?
all about public relations

5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on it?
R&B, hiphop with jazz (like Alicia Keys)

7. Who would fight you in Celebrity Death Match?

Drew Barrymore (don't ask me why. she was the first celebrity that came to mind re this question)

8. Which artist would you guest on their music video?

Usher or Josh Groban

9. Which TV show would you guest in?

Friday, March 19, 2004

to my friends who i had lunch today, thanks so much for a wonderful time. really had fun and lots of good laughs. =) thank you. thank you. and the spicy tuyo was so delicious. yum! tops, too bad you were not able to join us. probably next time.

before heading back to the office, i accompanied eunmi to Bizu and get her mom some ensaymada. i decided to get my boss a blueberry chiboust (its really blue berry cheesecake) since i've been bragging to her about how delicious desserts are in Bizu. eunmi kidded that it was a bribe since im going back to the office at 3pm from lunch. "yeah, in some way this is a bribe", i said.

once i got back to the office, i gave the treat to my boss. she thanked me and enjoyed the chiboust. we chatted for a while since she knew two of my friends. and then she said, "aga mo na ka balik from your lunch. nagmamadali ba sila makabalik ng office nila?" and i was like, "mother, late na nga e. its past 3pm na po." and she replied, "e, maaga pa rin kasi lunch yung date niyo." =) and now you know why KG and I love it here and why we like our boss. the blueberry chiboust wasnt a bribe after all. hehehe.

Thursday, March 18, 2004

just a quickie...(thanks to my friends who posted this. i get to copy it. hehehe)

When i was younger
4. Which finger is your favourite?
Right thumb (for texting. hehehehe).
5. When did you last cry?
last week
6. Do you like your handwriting?
yes. coz there's a saying love your own.
7. What is your favourite meat?
chicken
8. bad habits?
naah. won't share it here
9. What is your most embarrassing moment?
hmmm. making a fool out of myself infront of somebody.
10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH yourself?
yes. =)
11. Are you a daredevil?
at times, i am.
12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
nope.
13. Does looks matter?
to some extent it matters
14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?
oh yes.
15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?

nope
16. Do fish have feelings?
nemo has feelings...
17. Are you trendy?
I would like to think that I am.
18. How do you release anger?

shout, cry
19. Where is your second home?
Edward's home
20. What came first the chicken or the egg?
do i really have to know?!
21. What was your favourite toy as a child?
my older brother's collection of matchbox cars (yes. i was a tomboy when i was a lil kid. but then again, im still quite a tomboy these days. hahaha)
22. What class in school do you think is totally useless?
pity the guys who took ROTC in college
23. What's your goal in life?
to do my best out of my given time here on Earth
24. Have you ever been on radio or television?
in the newspaper coz of some PR work
25. Do u keep a journal?

does a "blog" count?

26. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
ask my friends.
27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
nope
28. What do you look for in a guy/girl?

i found what i was looking for in Edward. so for those who know him, you know what i looked for in a guy

29. What are your nicknames?
jen, pangga, jenibebe, jentot, jensky
30. Would you bungee?
done it but most willing to do it again
31. Do you un-tie your shoes when you take them off?>
no.
32. What are you worried about right now?
nothing as of the moment
33. Do you ever wear overalls?

i did once.
34. What's your favorite yosi?
When I used to smoke, i like Malboro menthol lights or DJ mixx
35. What's your favourite ice cream flavor?

cookies n' creme and chocnut ice cream in Uva (sorry moks, but they had it first before selecta. hehehehe.)
37. What is your least fav. thing in the world?
let's not even talk about it.
38. How many wisdom teeth do you have?
i dont know
39. Are you in love with anyone?
very much in love. =)
40. How many people have a crush on you right now?

two...they told me so i aint lying. & im not being manhid about it. hahaha.

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

on my way home last night, i saw this store that sells ice cream. particularly "soft ice cream". got me thinking, if there's  such an ice cream, then there is also a "hard ice cream" right? hmmm...

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

oh my! i just remembered. its the old crush/friend's birthday today. happy birthday to him! =)  id rather risk greeting him here than send him an SMS.

he finally found a girlfriend (don't mean to make it sound so sarcastic). happy for him. at least, he would stop bugging people about how lonely he is and let people explain why he is still single. when i learned about it, didnt know how to react. a part of me was truly ecstatic for him and another part just sort of said "oh really?!" (with a raised eyebrow). things started to flood my mind about him and our past. i suddenly remembered all the pain, hurt and how he dropped me (& the relationship) like a hot potato. it's like an ally mcbeal scene where ally was shot a couple of arrows on her chest. yes, that kind of pain. all i could remember was, he was a jerk and an asshole...(pardon the cuss words). ggggrrrr!

i started to bombared him with questions like are you sure youre ready and all that suff. he said he was taking it one day at a time and he thinks he's ready...but i wasnt convinced. i told him to do things right this time. make her a priority. and most importantly, fight for her... i just don't want another girl to fall in the same trap and just end up crying, hurt and broken hearted...like me...before...

some of you might think that i have a tinsy winsy love left for this guy. but i don't. i have analyzed myself on this and i love the man i am with right now. i think its more of my ego/pride who took over what i felt when i found out. for a time, i was having my perfect revenge (perfect coz i didnt plan anything. it was just the turn of events) when he tells me and when people around tell me that he was so stupid to let go of me. it hurts for him to see me happy with the relationship i have right now. it kills him deep inside. that made me smile coz he was feeling some of the pain and hurt i felt before. and i was happy knowing that.

but now, my perfect revenge has come to an end. attention is not mine anyomore. he found somebody who would make him happy...again. please don't think im too eveil or bad to think this way. im just but human who makes mistakes in looking at things at a certain way. im not jealous of the girl or something. again, its pride/ego taking over. it's just territorial. its something like, he was mine first. remember the scene in my bestfriend's wedding when julia roberts was asked by her gay bestfriend (forgot his name) why she wanted to break up michael and kimmy so badly? she replied (not verbatim), "i loved michael. and at first, yes, it was about winning. but now, i realized that i just want him because he got to be mine first." of course, i dont want him and i would never break them up. i just wanted to give a concrete example on what i was trying to say and feel.

im not quite sure if my reaction was normal. should i have reacted in a different way? i dont know. but be my guest. although in the end, my im-happy-for-him part is up by a few points against the sarcastic part of me. i pray and hope that they be happy and have a good, lasting relationship. and im praying that he makes it work this time. he's not intelligent for nothing, right? besides, i know that he is genuinely happy on how things are going in my relationship and my life. i truly wish them all the best...

Monday, March 15, 2004

I need to diet! Or probably, I need to eat less on my usual binge with food. Im not doing this beacause I'm figure conscious. Im doing this because Im money conscious. I don't want to spend money in buying a whole new set of wardrobe even if I can't fit in some of my fave pants and blouses already. I need to discipline myslef in eating less of everything. Or else, I will be a poor fat girl. =( So, i am going to diet! Lord...HELP ME!!!!

I always have a problem in writing emails to clients coz I tend to be so "mataray" or "bitchy" at them especially when their suggestions are so dull or "stupid" is written all over their email. I need to read my email a couple of times before I send it out to make sure that it is client friendly. After all, I'm the PR business. hehehe.

I'm bored here at work. It's a slow one today. But I don't want to complain. I might get swamped with work tomorrow. hahaha.

Friday, March 12, 2004

stole this from ida. hehehe. my brain's not functioning well to write something substantial here.

Top 3s

Things I have to do this year
• Learn how to eat spicy food
• learn how to swim (glenn, promised to teach me but la na siya dito sa office. huhuhu)
• save, save, SAVE!!!

Places I vow to visit this year
• Puerto Galera
• Boracay
• Camiguin

Bad habits I want to get over
• impulsive buying (not buying stuff for myself but for my loved ones)
• being lazy to exercise
• being stubborn

People that I couldn’t get enough of:
• my family (esp. my two adorable sisters)
• Edward
• uuhhh...can't think of anyone else!

Films that I’d see over and over
• My Bestfriend's Wedding (act like your shocked...hahaha)
• Ten Things I hate about you & other Julia Stiles movies
• My Sassy Girl =)

Things I’d want to do before I die
• get married and have children
• go on a cruise with Edward and my family
• go skydiving or any other extreme sport

Things/People I couldn’t live without
• my family, Edward, friends
• celfone, PC, my kikay kit, pen&paper
• TV & radio

Famous people I’ve met
• Jaime Agusto Zobel de Ayala a.k.a JAZA!!! (won't forget my 5 min. chit chat with him inside the elevator of Hotel Intercon and he even escorted me out...sigh!)
• Eraserheads (they were famous for a time naman di ba?!)
• some collegiate ball players who made their mark or making their mark in the pros

People I’d like to be stuck in an elevator with
• Edward (coz he always seems to know what to do)
• Robin Williams (i might die laughing inside the elvator. hahaha)
• Jon Hall (yummy!)

Thursday, March 11, 2004

one of my oldest friends called me last night. he wanted to talk to me about some problems he has been having and wanted to seek for my advice. i listened to all his rants and raves (but more of the ranting actually) about his relationship, work and family. i was a guidance counselor again for the night. i gave him advice and i think he was happy with what i said. then he asked me how i was doing. i told him that i was doing ok. then he said, "just ok?". i told him that life is good now, i cant complain. nothing earth shaking and mind blowing happening to me these days. he told me that my life was boring and dull. my life doesnt have any spice. i told him that its not the case. i am just at peace with my life and happy that things are doing well for me. and maybe i just have learned to be mature on things and how i deal with my problems. and maybe i just have a sunnier outlook in life. and all my friend could say was "good for you."

after talking to my friend, i cant help but pray to God and thank Him for making my life what it is today. coz looking back of the things i had to deal with last year and the years before that, it wasnt really easy. but here He was (and always there) to support me and assure me that everything happens for a reason. He was there to remind me that He won't give anything I couldnt bear. He was there to give me family and friends to be my support system. And look at me now, a stronger and more mature jen has emerged. I could not thank Him enough. The storm has passed and now its all sunshine. But I know, God is preparing me (again) for more things to come my way. But I'm not afraid to face it coz I know in my heart, I will be victorious and He will be there to guide me. So whatever and whenever it is, I say "bring it on!" =) All my praises are for Him. God is good...ALL THE TIME!

Monday, March 08, 2004

a new week just started:

- i'm taking a break from my Nina and Sid series. why? just because...hehehe

- most of you have sent me an SMS about this old crush and friend of mine who entered into showbizness. like you, i didnt know what has gotten into him. i thought that he was just really into basketball. maybe he needed a new career coz of his injury. hehehe. whatever his reason was, thank God im not associated with him who was dancing otso-otso last saturday in nationwide TV! major turn-off! note: a friend called me on my mobile just tell me to see him dance. eewww. i know, i know. most of you will remind me of the days when i was so into him. i WAS into him because he's nice, some kind of cute and a really good ball player. but these days... a totally different story. he's into showbiz and worst part is, he allows himself to be ridiculed... and makes a fool out of himself on TV for everybody to see. and many might think that's cool. for me, it's way uncool. but who i am to judge or discourage him of the path he wanted to take. maybe he's happy with his new career and i wish him all the best. i still wouldnt dare get in touch with him now. people around him might think im some whacko who wants his autrograph. hahaha.

- moks, thanks for telling me to watch Gothika. really enjoyed it. screamed my lungs out in the cinema. and i think edward would like to thank you too. i was clinging to him (or hugging him. dont know what's the more appropriate word to use) the whole time coz i was freaked out with the movie. =)

- like eunmi, i think i need to exercise or TRY to eat less. checked on my weight just this weekend and i gained 4 lbs...again. bummer. but what can i do? i love eating...

- the new adidas ad campaign is really awesome. i like it so much. nike should think of brilliant ways to counter this ad campaign. and dont stick with the "just do it" thing.

nothing more else to write... have a nice week people.

Thursday, March 04, 2004

julia stiles rocks! so do i! hehehe.

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The nerve to email me and ask how I was!!!! The nerve to act concerned about my life after she had this conspiracy with my other backstabbing friend!!! If I know, she just wanted to get some juicy info about how I’m doing so she and her so-called friend can talk about me again! The nerve to act like my friend and pretend that she doesn’t know anything! That backstabbing bitch! I wouldn’t give her the satisfaction in trying to ruin my life again. Coz frankly speaking, I’m doing so well without them! Kainis talaga. =(

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

In a slump…

 

yo sid! Wassup? It’s teri’s bday on Sat.

Be der or be square. K buddy?

Sender:  marco

+639172978563

 

Sent:

10:10:44am

03-02-2004

 

hey dude…not sure if I can

make it. Sori.

Sender: Sid

+639177653124

 

Sent:

10:12:32am

03-02-2004

 

ur kiddin man, ryt? U hav

2 be der. U never misd

any party. Don’t trip.

Sender: marco

+639172978563

 

Sent:

10:13:00am

03-02-2004

 

I ain’t trippin…got plans.

sori. Tell her, hapi bday.

sori dude.

Sender: Sid

+639177653124

 

Sent:

10:15:32am

03-02-2004

 

f**k! ure not goin coz

of nina ryt? She won’t be

der sid. She had to go

some place for work.

Sender: marco

+639172978563

 

Sent:

10:15:56am

03-02-2004

its not ol abt her, u knw.

I just got plans…

Sender: Sid

+639177653124

 

Sent:

10:17:45am

03-02-2004

 

 

whatever sid. Evrythin bout ur lyf

is nina. Everybody knws dat. Y don’t u

get ur butt out der and win her back.

do something! dude, ur not sid d great

for nothing. =)

Sender: marco

+639172978563

 

Sent:

10:22:38am

03-02-2004

 

 

tnx bro.but I aint d same sid

ever snce nina came in2 picture.

she tear down d walls…

talk 2 u soon marco.

Sender: Sid

+639177653124

 

Sent:

10:23:15am

03-02-2004

 

 

sid, my man. ur in a slump.

don’t be fu***in afraid.

face d problem. & im hopin

ur aint 2 late. ayt? c ya around.

Sender: marco

+639172978563

 

Sent:

10:24:35am

03-02-2004

 

 

Monday, March 01, 2004

Nina’s blog entry…

 

Sid called me up a few nights ago. Yes, the famous Sid. Sigh! I don’t exactly know what to feel or how to react while talking to him. He said he wanted us to be friends after all the things that had happened. Friends? Was it his way of saying “Im sorry for being an asshole. Let’s start all over again?” Or was it like, “I feel guilty for hurting you so lets be friends. I think that takes away some of the guilt.” If Lisa could read this now and hear me, I’m sure to get some scolding again. Logic tells me that” Sid and Nina” will never work out but my heart is the hopeless romantic as always. I wanted so much to tell Sid that I still love him and my heart still longs for him…but I can’t do that. He shouldn’t know that. He shouldn’t know that. The best thing for both us is to be out of each other’s life. Easier said than done huh? Maybe, I will just take this one day at a time. Maybe, I should stop thinking about him. Maybe, just maybe, I will get over him sooner than I thought… seriously, I don’t know what to do next. Although, I can always cry to my heart’s content while figuring it out….

 

 

“I keep on falling in and out of love with you. Sometimes, I love you. Sometimes, you make me blue. Sometimes, I feel good. Sometimes, I feel used. Loving you darling makes me confused…” – Alicia Keys

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